No expectations, no disappointments... hmm right to the point; if this was followed, I don't think that I would have any tears. But sometimes aren't you allowed to expect from those u trust and are there for you for you to count on... why such bullshit then. I mean sometimes i feel like every thing is such bs, every aspect of this is for "popularity" and those that they like. If they don't like you, tooo bad you get screwed!
I haven't felt this horrrible in awhile. why do i feel lke my world is caving in on me, why am i getting destroyed from everywhere i find comfort; crying my eyes out.....
it sux when ppl dun even have the decency to check up on you.. i mean what da f**k i dun want this anymore.. what is the point.. bs about how always there for you..got your back... my ass
why did i do this again????? why did i go and become a part of something that doesn't give two shits about me...
its tru... happiness is only in satsang, don't have to deal with all the pain of the world, better to give your life in service of God, then to sit at home crying your eyes out because of betrayal, atleast then you'll get happiness in the form of salvation. You can't please everyone in the world, so the best thing to do is please God and Guru, because then you will have the world in the palm of your hands. there is truely no PERSON in the world you can count on, family, friends.. no one. except my parents, my sister hileri, and of course there is God and Swami. thats it, thanx for this great lesson in life; since i am still pretty young it won't affect my future and destroy me.
From this day on, no more getting too involved anywhere; me my family my future and swami.
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